You may have read my post about What Matters Most focusing on what is truly important to me as a person. This probably ought to be some kind of continuation too aside from being my Mother’s Day reflection. Please bear with me as I pour my heart out. 🙂
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I started blogging way back in 2009. It was purely personal. In fact, I don’t think my friends knew I had a blog. No hint of any “commerciality” in it. It was just a simple online diary. A few years later, I tried to go a bit “commercial”. And since I loved food to the nth level, my blog became a foodie blog. Reviewing restaurants here and there, criticizing dishes as if my opinion mattered. My blog died and resurrected several times. It started with Tumblr, then WordPress, then my finally my own domain.
It was finally after getting pregnant and then quitting my corporate job to focus on being a mom when I came back to blogging (more often). Although it devastated me when my domain provider lost more than 4 years worth of memories when my hosting got restarted, I just tried to pick up where I left off. And here I am, writing about the things that matter to me – my family being number one.
I am far from being a professional blogger. I don’t have thousands of followers and this is not a lucrative career. However, being exposed to this “world” still somehow has an effect in our daily lives. Having a blog and being active on social media makes it difficult to focus on what truly matters. Every single day we are faced with all kinds of superficiality – superficiality that disguises itself as significant in our lives.
I know it’s cute to post your child’s OOTDs especially when you have a little girl who’s always fun to dress up. (I thought I would be that kind of mom, but my being protective ruled it out. I never post any photo of my baby on my public Instagram account for security purposes.) I know how particularly fun it is to take really nice photos of food they eat and places they go to. I know how satisfying it is for most parents to post about milestones and things their kids can do at a certain age. It’s actually funny how ALL parents think and claim that their kids are “advanced”. Some would even make a collage to ensure all these milestones are documented – but for the world to see instead of privately. I’m a mom too. I understand.
BUT THEN AGAIN, THERE ARE MORE SIGNIFICANT THINGS THAT MATTER.
FAMILY WILL ALWAYS MATTER! To my own mom, who has been my guiding light and constant source of strength, I LOVE YOU! Happy Mother’s Day! Thank you for not only being a great mom but a great grandmother to Andie!
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One time while I was talking to my husband before we said our bedtime prayer, I told him: “You know what, I really want our daughter to grow up to be intelligent, beautiful, athletic, confident…but I just realized, my ultimate prayer is for her to be a GOOD PERSON first before all of those.”
I was not kidding. And I was not practicing for a beauty pageant either.
God knows that I truly meant it. He knows in my heart that my ultimate prayer is for my child to grow up as a genuinely good person with a kind heart. And then the rest will follow.
She may be good looking, smart, rich and famous, but at the end of the day, if she’s not a good person, she will never be completely happy. It’s just how life is.
And I mean it in the most sincere and non-cliché way possible. I meant it as a MOTHER.
If I truly want the BEST for my child, then I want her to be a good person first above anything else.
So there I was, thinking about the many things I can teach her so she will grow up to be a good person. I worry when she would sometimes throw tantrums or get bratty when she does not get what she wants. (Though many moms say it’s just normal). I feel sad when one time she imitated her daddy’s loud voice when we were trying to implement early discipline. I was so absorbed in this desire to train her to be good that I forgot the most essential thing…
AND SHE WAS THE ONE WHO MADE ME REALIZE IT.
MY PRECIOUS DAUGHTER ON HER 13TH MONTH (around February) smiled and shouted “Jeeeeezzz!” when we walked past the small altar of her grandmother’s house. She was pointing at Jesus.
When I brought her near, she touched Jesus’ hand (his statue) and then touched her forehead and right shoulder, attempting to make the sign of the cross. Apparently, she notices that I make the sign of the cross every time I see Jesus so I guess she imitated me. She called Him again “Jeeeez!” and I was so amazed I did not know how to react but I felt my eyes welling up in tears.
I did not teach her about Jesus (what a shame mommy!). I probably mentioned Him a couple of times but never taught her substantially like I did with the parts of the body, colours, or the names of her toys. But she knew who Jesus was! And she was delighted to see Him!
AT ONLY 13 MONTHS!!!
AMAZED AND GRATEFUL. That’s all I can say.
How can I forget? HE is the first step in attaining my dream for my child to grow up as a genuinely good person.
Now all I have to do is continue teaching her good manners, patience, charity, and kindness. It’s definitely a tough job for a mom. But I’m driven and committed to it.
Thank You, Jesus, for loving my child and showing us again WHAT MATTERS MOST. What matters most is YOU.
EVERY SINGLE DAY, MY PRAYER AS A MOTHER, IS FOR MY CHILD TO KNOW JESUS AND BE LIKE HIM – TO HAVE A GENUINELY GOOD HEART. Amen. ❤️
“There’s no way to be a perfect mother and a million ways to be a good one.” – Jill Churchill
Happy Mother’s Day to all Super Moms in the world!
May all our prayers be heard and answered.
Happy and honored to be a mom,